December 31st

I can’t believe the year is over. I honestly couldn’t care less that it’s a new year, but it’s just weird to think about. It seems like I just started this blog yesterday, and now I’m on my very last entry. I can’t believe I’ll be graduating in less than five months. 2011 should definitely be an interesting year.

But anyway, tonight was fun. Jess and I continued our super awesome tradition of just sitting at her house and having our own little party. We watched hairspray, drank monster, ate Oreos, and watched some Dick Clark. I’d say it was a quality night. Then we stayed up until seven in the morning and now I’m exhausted.

Goodbye 2010. Hello 2011.

December 30th

I mostly just wanted to write something today because I really love this picture. Jake is adorable.

Anyway, today was pretty fun. I went to lunch with Jess, Jake, and Ryan early in the day. They’re always lots of fun. Then I came home and learned that my dad got laid off again. The next few months are going to be terrible. We have quite a bit of money saved though, so the whole financial situation shouldn’t be too bad. Hopefully things work out. The only issue will be the obnoxious complaining of my mother. Oh well.

Only one more say of 2010. That’s so weird. Let’s hope it’s a good one.

December 28th

Jakey asked me to be his girlfriend today. Happy happy happy day.

Excuse my face. I don’t know how I got a boyfriend looking like that. Byebye.

December 25th

Merry Christmas! I’m writing this from my new itouch. It’s pretty embarrassing how obsessed with it I am. It’s the main thing I got today, and I got a few other random things and money. It was definitely a good day. Even hanging out with my family was better than normal. I’m just in a really really good mood, and I’m excited for shopping downtown tomorrow!

Other things going on in my life are pretty swell also. This year is definitely ending on bright note. Hopefully this last week of break will be as good as the first.

Happy happy day (:

December 17th

So yesterday was the last day of the first semester of my senior year, and that’s completely unbelievable to me. I only have one semester left of high school. That’s really freaking scary to think about. But really exciting at the same time. I’m still freaking out about college, but I’m sure it’ll be okay.

Right now I’m mostly stress-free. Finals are over, and I actually did really well on all of them. I’m finished with my SSA for IU, which is also a huge weight off my shoulders. Now I have two weeks to just relax, and I’m going to make sure it’s amazing. I already have some plans that will definitely give my break a good start.

So yeah. I’m really freaking happy with life right now.

December 12th

This picture is from yesterday, but I love Chase Coy so I’m using it for today. Yesterday was such a good day. I saw Chase live for the first time in way over a year, and it was amazing. He’s so good live, and I forgot just how much I love him. Now I’m going to be listening to his music on repeat for a while. His lyrics are just so freaking good.

But anyway, I look really fat in that picture, so I’m really going to have to start working out. That’s random, but really. I’ve felt disgusting lately, so I really need to do something to fix that. We’ll see how that goes.

Hmm. So the first semester of my senior year is almost over, and that’s crazy to think about. 7/8 of my high school life is over. I’m pumped about that but really sad at the same time. Everything is so hectic. I’ve already gotten into colleges, which is nice, but I’m still paranoid about the money situation. I have scholarship stuff to do for IU, but I’m scared I’m not going to get enough. If I don’t get to go there, I’ll probably cry. Ball State is a decent back up though, I guess.

My life has been weird lately. Something ended that I’m really glad about. I’m angry, but I know it’s for the best. I’m actually not being all pathetic and sad this time, which is always nice. I think I’m slowly getting better at this stuff. And now there’s something new happening. Who knows what will happen. Probably nothing, but oh well. It’s nice and he’s really cute, so it’s worth a shot.

I hate winter, but I love the snow. Except when it messes up my plans. But that’s okay. I just really really really want to go sledding. Hopefully it keeps snowing so I can go some time next weekend or something. And I hope it stays all snowy for Christmas, which I really can’t wait for. This should be a good one.

But anyway, now I need to get back to studying for finals. Biology is going to be ridiculous tomorrow and English probably will be too. Crap. Goodbye people. Hopefully I write on this a few more times before the year is over. I can’t believe it’s almost done. Time goes by so fast. It’s crazy.

November 21st

This picture is actually from yesterday, but it’s whatever. I guess I lied in my last post when I said that I was going to update this more often. I just got distracted. Oh well. Life has been pretty freaking good lately. Well, for the most part.

I’m kind of confused in this whole situation. I know what you say, but I hear different things from other people and it frustrates me because I just don’t know what to expect. Plus, I kind of feel like a bad person sometimes. But oh well, I enjoy this whole thing too much to end it. And I’m going to end up getting attached again. I’ve already accepted that. Oh well. I’m having fun, and for now, that’s all that matters.

It’s getting to the holiday season, and I’m kind of excited. Thanksgiving is kind of boring to me. Mostly because my family is so freaking boring, so it’s pointless. We just eat, then sit there being all bored. And I don’t even like the typical Thanksgiving food very much, so it’s pretty stupid for me. Oh well. Christmas is a little bit better sometimes. So we’ll see. I just hope it snows soon. That’s definitely my favorite part of this time of the year.

I’ve been less excited for college recently. I’m going to miss people more than I thought I would. It depresses me. Hopefully I get over that soon, or the summer is going to suck. I hope college is as good as it sounds. Hmm.

I guess that’s all I really have to update. Byebye.

October 21st

I think I might start writing this semi-regularly again. Definitely not every day. Just more often.

It’s weird how happy I am right now. I just feel really good about everything. I probably shouldn’t keep talking about it, though, because I’ll end up jinxing myself.

I’m glad it’s fall break finally. I guess it’s only two days, but it’s plenty for me right now. I needed to get away from school for a little bit. I’m most excited to sleep in. I need to catch up badly. But anyway, I started my break off pretty well yesterday. I hung out with Jess. We played Mario Party and watched Mean Girls. Definitely a quality night. Tonight, I’m going to see Paranormal Activity 2 with Danny. We’ll see how it goes. I’m pretty stinkin’ excited.

Yeah. Life is good.

<3

October 18th

I haven’t done this in a while, so I thought I should update on the status of my life. I should probably be careful though. Last time I wrote here, I got in trouble. I guess that’s what happens when you write about your feelings. Some people just can’t take it. Stalkers suck.

First of all, I’m happier at this moment than I have been in quite a while. Yeah, I’ve had great days here and there, but this is the first time I’ve been overall happy in a long time. I’m so bipolar with my emotions, but I’ve been relatively happy for about a month now. Maybe a little less. I’m hoping it will stay this way for once.

Here are some updates on random parts of my life:

1. I like where this thing is going, but I’m going to be very careful. We’re going to move slow. If something happens, something happens. I’m trying not to get my hopes up, though. I’m not getting too attached too fast this time. You have something to prove before this goes very much farther. I can’t take a repeat of last time. Who knows if it’ll work out, we’ll see how it goes. I’m content with whatever it is right now, and that’s all that really matters. You’re entertaining.

2. I’m so much better off without you. I’m so glad that you ended that because I didn’t realize exactly how miserable I really was until it was over. I was crushed for a few days, until I realized how good this all is. I don’t need you at all. If you lived here, I’m confident that we’d be completely happy. For so long, I looked forward to the future when maybe we could be together. But now, I don’t think that day will ever come. Even if we end up at the same place, I don’t think it could work out. You’ll regret it, I know you will. No other girl will be as good for you as I could have been. You missed your chance. I was always there, when no one else was. Good luck with life.

3. School is going pretty well right now. My grades are good, and I’ve already gotten accepted to IU and Ball State. I can’t wait for college. I still have tons of crap to figure out before that happens, but it’s right around the corner and I’m more excited that I can even explain. I’ll get a chance to prove that I can be independent. I just can’t wait to open a new chapter of my life. Being “grown up” is weird, but exciting at the same time.

4. My friends are great people. I hope that I can stay in contact with the important ones after graduation. I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I can’t wait to get away from about ninety percent of my school. But losing that other ten percent scares the shit out of me. I have some really close friends going to different states for college, and I’m terrified that they’ll just forget about me. I guess I’ll find out exactly who my real friends are once next year starts. I’m nervous.

The end.

August 10th

Today was the first day of my senior year. It was decent I guess. It reminded me how much I hate pretty much everyone at my school, though. They’re all just so obnoxious. They probably think the same about me, though. Whatever. But yeah, my classes are pretty good. They could definitely be a lot worse. Hopefully I can actually leave during my senior unassigned study hall soon. It better not take forever. There are a lot of people I wish I saw at school this year that I don’t. Maybe I’ll see more people next semester or something.

Hopefully this school year is a good one.